Humble Me

I just want all that I do to be an act of worship to the one who gave everything for me. I want to be a mirror image of him in every way. My attempts are pitiful and I just beg that he continues to humble me. But I will never stop fighting because his kingdom is the only one worth fighting for.

Homesick

To not feel you near is the worst feeling in the world. And it's not something that anyone can understand unless they know you. My soul aches and groans, mostly because I'm the one who pushes you away. Then when I don't feel you, all that's left is emptiness and pain. And it's not guilt. I know what choices I've made. It's a tearing between flesh and spirit and damnit, it hurts. It's my own desire to compromise that inevitably breaks me in two. Sometimes I wish for this to be over, that I may simply be with you. I'm so far from home.